That was all for now.
I was dismissed.
As if I’d been told that the shoes I wanted weren’t available in my size and not that I was pregnant with triplets.
Oh and by the way, the Doctor couldn’t see me right now.
Did I mind coming back in one and a half hours.
“No. No I don’t mind” is what I said. But that’s not what I was thinking…
I shook my head in disbelief and laughed. One of those closed mouth laughs where you bite your lips closed from the inside and the only sound is air being pushed out through your nostrils.
I shivered.
The hall was cold. Or maybe it wasn’t the hall. Maybe I was hungry. Now that I was eating for four, it seemed logical.
The journey back was different than the way down.
It seemed to go on forever. And what happened to all the people?
I peeked my head in every doorway. On both sides. Not a soul.
I was all alone. Literally and figuratively.
I finally made it to the end of the tunnel. There was no light. Just the Receptionist.
I felt like an animal that hadn’t eaten in weeks. I had one last chance to pounce.
I didn’t know her name. It didn’t matter. I had to talk to her.
I had no choice.
Ever been at the End of a Dark Tunnel?
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In May 2013, I wrote this post about what it was like finding out I was pregnant with triplets.
I was then prompted to write a post about what I smelt after hearing the news that I was pregnant with triplets. I couldn’t remember a smell but I could remember a feeling. A feeling of being cold. This is that post.
I’m shivering! Thanks for this intriguing piece..can’t wait to continue the journey with you.
aww .. what a journey you are embarking on. Exciting yet scary all at the same time. Wishing you and the babies all the best.
WOW. That’s how I felt when it was confirmed that I was having a miscarriage. We knew it was probably very likely but even though my hubby was there I still felt very alone. I can’t imagine the feelings you felt with being told you were having 3. 1 baby seemed overwhelming. Having my 3rd son was extremely overwhelming.
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Wow, sounds really scary. I can't imagine what a shock that would be. I mean, two was more than enough for me 🙂 and now having two infants at home I don't even know how you handled having three!
Hope you are having a great week!
I can't even imagine having triplets! I hope you've got lots of good friends and family who will help you with the babies and offer you lots of support! Can't wait to hear more!
Wow! That would have been a shocker for me. You actually took the news a lot more calmly than I would have. Hope you're enjoying the week!
That would have been a shocker for sure, I can't imagine getting that news!
The feelings associated with pregnancy are unlike any other. Thank you for a chilling post! Strange how you can write so little and express so much.